December 7, 2010

A bit about Aimi Razman


Well i dont know how to describe this feeling .
*blur

If you see me as a cheerful or a talk active girl . spamming around here and there on facebook . twitter or tumblr . thats because in real life . i’m never good in speaking . i’m never good in expressing my feeling verbally , hence i use words . unlike my siblings , i’m never good in speaking or dealing with people . i don’t have much friends , i despise crowd . i feel life is hard when i can't even defense myself !
*sobsob . 


actually i am an interesting ceh . fun loving girl with a good sense of humor . One thing about me that is important to know though is that at first i come of as a very shy individualistic girl but once i get to know people and are comfortable with my environment i am great . yeah !! it is hard for me to make friends but once i make them , it’s great and i am all different . i joke , laugh and humor people and i also get as much as i give. i am a very kind , compassionate, sensitive as my close friends will tell you . i have a tough shell but on the inside i am soft . i am also a very principled person and stand strong on what is right and wrong . i am also a very straight and honest person . i understand and know that we all put on a show sometimes and do not show who we really are or what we feel but some people do this constantly and those kinds of people i cannot stand . *bangga sekejap . 


i may look so strong outside . but deep inside i’m so fragile . shit happens and there’s no way i could escape from them . i often forget why i’m alive in this flawed world . running down the empty road , passing by every single sign just to look for directions . yes ! i , sometimes forget that i have Allah beside me . then if i know that my God would never leave me . why i still feel so alone and lonely while i can pray ? why i still feel afraid for some unknown reasons ? is it because i didn’t worship Him properly ??
*subhanallah , Allah Maha Besar . disappointments , tears and remorse . they often come as a packet in life . i keep talking to myself . i should stop questioning myself about all the things i’ve done in life . i know visualizing how awful my life is would be too unfair without thinking the brighter side . the happiness that i had all this while , should be happened for a reason .*insyallah . i just don’t know why i feel so mellow in these past few days . you know , it really hurts when you think maybe your life ain’t worth a shit . but , maybe i should at least keep fighting for the ones i love , for mak and babah’s sake , for my siblings and my family and of course for the others who really appreciate my existence . *thanks guys , you rocks !







i won’t cry anymore . because i’m trying my best . because i’ll be stronger .

10 feedback(s) :

Anonymous said...

terima kasih amigo! besar posting!

Unknown said...

sape anon ni ? teehee ,

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DBeez said...

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Unknown said...

@anon : thanks . appreciated ;)

@ budak jahat : eyh ? nampak sedih ke ?

ASTANA BAGUS said...

i like this hehehe

Unknown said...

@astana bagus : thanks lovely :)

Unknown said...

suke entry ni..kita pun salu rasa lonely, xbanyak kawan, n tak tahu nak defense diri sendiri, byk diam je..sebab tak nak org ckp mcm2, tp bila diam pun, org masih nak bercakap jugak..tak paham..huh

btw, nice blog..^_^

Unknown said...

misz_j : lumrah manusia, apa yang kita buat suma ada je tak kena pada mata diorang. itu tk kena, ini tk kena. thats why kena ada target and peduli apa kata orang as long as benda tu tk bawa fitnah. the key is sabar :)
Thanks misz yg cantik :)))

Anonymous said...

awak sgt cantik dan comel!

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