A bit about Aimi Razman

Well i dont know how to describe this feeling .

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If you see me as a cheerful or a talk active girl . spamming around here and there on facebook . twitter or tumblr . thats because in real life . i’m never good in speaking . i’m never good in expressing my feeling verbally , hence i use words . unlike my siblings , i’m never good in speaking or dealing with people . i don’t have much friends , i despise crowd . i feel life is hard when i can't even defense myself !

*sobsob . 


actually i am an interesting ceh . fun loving girl with a good sense of humor . One thing about me that is important to know though is that at first i come of as a very shy individualistic girl but once i get to know people and are comfortable with my environment i am great . yeah !! it is hard for me to make friends but once i make them , it’s great and i am all different . i joke , laugh and humor people and i also get as much as i give. i am a very kind , compassionate, sensitive as my close friends will tell you . i have a tough shell but on the inside i am soft . i am also a very principled person and stand strong on what is right and wrong . i am also a very straight and honest person . i understand and know that we all put on a show sometimes and do not show who we really are or what we feel but some people do this constantly and those kinds of people i cannot stand . *bangga sekejap . 

i may look so strong outside . but deep inside i’m so fragile . shit happens and there’s no way i could escape from them . i often forget why i’m alive in this flawed world . running down the empty road , passing by every single sign just to look for directions . yes ! i , sometimes forget that i have Allah beside me . then if i know that my God would never leave me . why i still feel so alone and lonely while i can pray ? why i still feel afraid for some unknown reasons ? is it because i didn’t worship Him properly ??

*subhanallah , Allah Maha Besar . disappointments , tears and remorse . they often come as a packet in life . i keep talking to myself . i should stop questioning myself about all the things i’ve done in life . i know visualizing how awful my life is would be too unfair without thinking the brighter side . the happiness that i had all this while , should be happened for a reason .*insyallah . i just don’t know why i feel so mellow in these past few days . you know , it really hurts when you think maybe your life ain’t worth a shit . but , maybe i should at least keep fighting for the ones i love , for mak and babah’s sake , for my siblings and my family and of course for the others who really appreciate my existence . *thanks guys , you rocks !

i won’t cry anymore . because i’m trying my best . because i’ll be stronger .