Beautiful Isn’t everything

Day and night I am always tired , but at night I stay up just late enough until I exhausted enough , until I can fall into my bed and into immediate slumber because I can't stand to lay in my bed in a dark room . Alone with my thoughts for so many hours and then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways , they can't ever be fixed and this is something nobody ever can tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see people in your life break one by one . You wonder when your turn is going to be or if it's already happened .