February 4, 2011

I have learned to stop loving someone. Unfortunately,I'm starting not to love anyone else either


When a girl stick with liking one guy for a long time through all the craps he gives her
It doesn't mean she doesn't see it
 It means she actually loves him

When a girl never holds his promises that he'll prove that he'll changed himself one day
It doesn't mean she doesn't waiting a new him 
It means she actually loves him

When a girl never reply any email from this one guy
It doesn't mean she didn't read any incoming mail from this one guy
It means she actually loves him

When a girl still keeping a folder in her laptop related to this one guy
It doesn't mean she doesn't just keep it
It means she actually loves him


Until one day, 
She found this one guy with another new girlfriend.......

I am such an asshole to myself. I read our old love notes. I listen to our songs. I think about what you are doing and when you are doing, if you are thinking of me. I look at the pictures, you take with those girls.


I have to fix this broken. Alone.




As much as I love you and as much as I want you to continue being a part of my life, I know that you aren’t the right one for me. It’s not that I don’t believe in us and it’s not that I don’t want us to progress and actually “happen.” It’s just that inside of me, there’s a driving force that has brought this to my attention. 

You’re telling me to “go with the flow” and take our “relationship” as it is because if we “love” each other, things will work out for the best. I disagree. Things don’t just “work out.” There’s no such thing as a “destiny” that you have to follow explicitly. I’m a hard worker and I want my hard work to pay off. I don’t believe in sitting on your ass hoping that things will get better. You’re not doing anything to change things; they don’t get better. Everyone’s life is fucked up in some way or another, but it’s up to the individual to do something about it. Therefore, if you don’t want to “work at” our “relationship” then I don’t want to either. I’m tired. With all the energy I put into you and “us” I could finish the next year’s worth of homework. 

Plus, I’m still young. There should be no reason for me to be tied down yet. Especially not in this type of stressful situation, especially not with you. I’d say I’m sorry but I’m not. The only person I’m sorry to is myself for wasting all my time searching for something that wasn't there to begin with.





Currently : AIMI DOESN'T NEED A GUY TO BE HAPPY






16 feedback(s) :

k.a.s said...

being single will keep u away from problems.. u have plenty of time and u can do whatever u want.. again, sorry to hear about what happened. I've been there too.

Nurulbadiah Lai said...

love this..sometimes..guy give us more painful..so the better way is..dont find a guy that we believe they can make me happy..sometimes it is juz wasting our time..

they only one who can make us happy is ourself..

zaty luvlianncezzz said...

welll..juzz chill wif ur life keyh :)

ahmadbaihaqie abdrazak said...

nice.makes me think that guys like me this day are not worth anything.i fell ashamed.i'm going to get better

Aimi Razman said...

k.a.s : apparently, we are in the same boats :) Lets have a life without depending on others.

Aimi Razman said...

nurulbadiah : its true deary. mostly people choose their couple just only to have fun with and they will get hurt at the end.

Aimi Razman said...

@zaty : chill w/o useless man.

Aimi Razman said...

@ahmadbaihaqie : hehe. its only to a loser man. if you found you are great man, no worry ok :) treat your girl gently.

AinN said...

aimi..dun b so give up like this....u deserve to b hepy...i sincerely pray 4 u :)

AinN said...

aimi..dun b so give up like this....u deserve to b hepy...i sincerely pray 4 u :)

farah said...

i love how u put your feeling into words. its affecting me too. i am nobody in the love world. never experience it, because i am too scared to get hurt.. like the way love hurt you. oh wait. its that guy who hurt you. he don't know what he had miss. poor him.

single is fun sis :)

kahirie said...

saya amat paham dengan semua yang diatas...

Aimi Razman said...

@AinN : syg ainn, thanks coz pray for me :)

Aimi Razman said...

@farah : or maybe we are not meant to be together, and i'll accept it insyallah. thanks farah :)

Aimi Razman said...

@kahirie : terima kasih atas kefahaman anda.

Aimi Farhana said...

i pray for your happiness. never been in your situation but i do know what defines single is. single is cool sista. make it roll :)

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