To each and everyone of us :)

I know its kinda late wishing HNY , hehe. 

Well, HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone :)

In 2010, friendships have been very difficult to maintain. Misunderstandings after misunderstandings, bitching after bitching. It was never pleasant.

Although i lost a few friends this year, i found some new ones too. With new friends in my life, the old ones are still treasured.

2010, thank you for being a pain in the ass sometimes. You have thought me the true meaning of friendship, the meaning of hard work, the meaning of appreciation and definitely the meaning of patience.

Being 24 years old now, i beg to differ.

 ♥

But sadly, yesterday night rumah blackout. Heaven sangat rasa !@#$%^&* 

And then we went Giant at 10pm ONLY to buy cocoa powder then trus balik buat cake sempena birthday adik bongsu aku tetiba cake tu tk jadi :")

Pic resepi asal officially from Kak Hana

Sangat cantik if dibandingkan dengan aku punya :")

Actually, sedap memang sedap, haha puji plak tp dia jadi hancur sbb aku terbalikkan cake ni time tgh panas. Abis hancur semua. Maybe sebab ada cheese sket. 

Pastu semua muka nak macamni,

O_O

Eeeei , cake apa ni wei !

T_T

waaaa, i will not make any cake for his month, i swear ! Next month, tengok la macammana.

Yay ?!

After blogwalking on new year midnight, i got this. Nice and thanks :)

Tag for whole my faithful readers.

Cantiknya cantik

Aku merasakan aku ini terlalu sangat dimanjakan dengan hiburan kosong, t.v, internet, fashion, makanan, ekonomi, dan keturunan. Dan aku sangat hargai apa yang aku rasa ni. Hope lepas ni aku lebih sedar diri. Harap-harap ada la kawan sejati yang aku temui lebih banyak. Aku dah bosan asyik ditikam dari belakang dipergunakan oleh manusia yang kononnya kawan, masa susah timbullah frasa 'mintak tolong'. Then after that, proses 'menikam' pun berlaku. Siap pangkah dulu belakang aku ni. Nak tikam kat mana dan bila dah tikam dengan cantik yang menikam puas hati yang kena tikam memang superb 'best'! Akhirnya aku dah tk kisah dgn semua adegan tikam-menikam ni. Dari belakang ke, depan ke, bawah ke, macam dah lali. Dan alhamdulilah aku dah maafkan penikam yang jahat tu. Aku rasa luka tikaman aku lagi cepat sembuh bila aku maafkan diaorang. Tikam lah aku, aku tak jemu untuk memaafkan penikam-penikam tu. Aku merasakan jika aku hidup dengan memeram dendam, amatlah rugi kerana dunia yang besar ni menjanjikan banyak sekali cinta, sayang dan kebahagiaan. Dengan cara dan masa yang tepat dan sempurna, aku pasti temui benda-benda cantik. Aku kena tanam dalam diri aku bahawa aku boleh belajar dimana sahaja, bila-bila masa sahaja. Aku pasti semua perkara di dunia ini juga begitu. Sebusuk mana pun sesuatu perkara itu, pasti ada yang wanginya. Begitu juga sebaliknya. Aku akan belajar lagi agar dapat menjadi seorang 'heroin' yang pantas dan cekap dalam menerima 'benda' wangi dan busuk ini. Sesuatu yang baik pasti ada harganya, termasuklah cinta. Samaada cinta kepunyaan aku, mahupun cinta orang dikeliling aku. Begitulah harga yang aku bayar.

Aku cukup kagum manusia yang hidup dengan cinta yang dibina. Tk kiralah bertunang mahupun berkahwin, aku merasakan itu satu langkah yang hebat yang aku sendiri belum pasti samaada aku mampu berbuat sedemikian. Apa pun, yang pasti, aku mahu belajar untuk melangkah sehebat kawan aku dan menghidupkan cinta bersama orang yang tersayang. Berlaku apabila seorang kawan aku yang tidak lagi sekawan apabila dia sudah mempunyai teman hidup dan komitmen dan tanggungjawap. yeah! She's married. Pada mulanya aku agak merajuk atas tindakan 'sekawan' dulu, tapi akhirnya aku sedar persahabatan yang aku mahu beri padanya adalah amat halus dan kecil jika dibandingkan dengan kehebatan dan kegagahan kebahagiaan yang dia alami dengan pasangan hidupnya. Pasti dia memilih yang terbaik untuk dia dan hidupnya. Aku rasa cinta tu memang satu keperluan dalam hidup. Tk kiralah pasal laki ke, scene dan family. Tanpa cinta tiada keamanan dan cinta kekadang boleh membuatkan kita hanyut dan boleh membentuk insan. Terpulanglah pada seseorang itu untuk menilai cinta. Harapan aku supaya dijodohkan dengan 'kawan sejati'. Kawan yang ada dikala senang atau susah, kaya atau miskin, mahupun apabila sihat atau sakit. Pernah aku merasakan aku ini ada satu pegangan terhadap sesuatu perkara, tapi aku tidak menghidupkan kepercayaan terhadap perkara tu dengan bersungguh-sungguh apabila bertemu dengan orang yang berpandangan lain dari aku.

Duit? Aku tahu duit penting, tapi jika berkira sangat pasal duit masalah lah! Mungkin aku patut gunakan frasa berkongsi dengan ikhlas :)

Goodbye 2010,

A simple MAKEUP TIPS from me

My dear faithful readers, Assalammualaikum. This entry is dedicated to girls only :) Oh ok la boys also can.  I just wanna share my product skin and makeup since there are too many guys yang always keep asking me, 'Hai Aimi, you guna lipstick product apa ? color ? description ? code color ?' And now , fosho i am in good mood so let's go babe!

             Eyeliner : Black Kohl

             Lipgloss : Elianto SunScreen Lip Gloss SPF 15 Chocolate Smoothie

             Blusher : Elianto Rosey Cheeks 05 Peachy Rose

             Base Makeup : Tinted Base Makeup

             Face Powder : Elianto Whitening two-way cake 02 Soft beige

             Liquid cream : Maybelline Clear Smooth 12 Natural

Is that clear ? My makeup simple je. Tak banyak sangat sebab aku miskin. Actually, for me la, the MAIN makeup is Eyeliner. Rasa sangat tak perfect if tak pakai. Pernah juga aku bercita-cita nak hangout tanpa eyeliner, sekali dah masuk kereta keluar balik masuk rumah and pakai segala eyeliner :D Hrm, bercakap pasal cara nak makeup tu aku assume semua dah tahu kan? Takpela, i bet semua dah tahu. Kan banyak tutorial macammana nak makeup. Aku cuma share product apa yang aku guna je k? 

Eyeliner

Mostly, tak ramai yang guna eyeliner ni. Yela murah kan, sape nak pandang. Kat pasar malam ada jual. Ada red and blue tube tak silap. Cara nak pakai you all refer sini.

Lipgloss

 I really love this one v mush! Chocolate Smoothie from Elianto is my fav color ever ! 

Blusher

Elianto Rosey Cheeks 05 Peachy Rose ni color dia more to orange. But sangat matching dengan my skin. Ape pun better you all test color blusher ni ikut warna kulit masing-masing. Test dulu before beli!

Base Makeup

This tinted base makeup jarang sangat aku guna. Depends on tempat juga. 

Face Powder

Two-way cake ni boleh guna 2 ways as liquid foundation or powder. 

Eyelashes

 Ok yang ni as accessories je. Aku prefer yang thick eyelashes. Nampak heavy.

So, mostly makeup aku from Elianto. About a years juga lah jadi loyal customer dorang. But now sejak Maybelline ada product baru ;BB cream, aku rasa nak try. 8 in 1 you ! Luckily la coz muka aku tak fussy sangat. Semua product dia ngam. Sebab skrg aku guna Safi Rania GOLD as moisturizer. Ada untuk malam and siang. Mahal la juga. Better beli BB cream. Lagi jimat duit haku hehe. Whatever is, kulit muka kena jaga betul-betul. Makeup too. Ada yang suka makeup tebal. Berinci jugalah eye shadow dia. Tapi aku gila serius tak pernah pakai eye shadow do. Muka ni theme eyeliner je. Tak vouge mana pun.

Okla guys 

If ada question, just ask. I am feeling free to answer. Muah lovelies! 

Contest: STYLE YOUR HIJAB

Syarat penting !

1) Gambar pakai tudung or hijab or shawl (purdah digalakkan..hee) p/s TUDUNG BAWAL PON BOLEY ..wuwu 

2) Make sure tutup aurat ! (pakai tudung ikot cara islam yer !) 

3) Bile ana cakap tutup aurat means takde nampak rambut,takde nampak lengan,takder sendat2 sangat yer ! 

4) Kalau ade gambar yang tak tepati syariat ,gua tak reject awal2,tapi gua nasihat dulu..tehee

Selepas dua syarat di atas dipenuhi ,buat ini :

1) Satu entry bertajuk SAYA SUKE BERHIJAB or STYLE UR HIJAB ,masokkan gambar di atas dalam entry anda,pastu linkkan gambar itu ke post ini yer ..letak sekali syarat-syarat contest ni yer ^^ 

2) Letak banner(gambar) yang kat atas tu di sidebar belog anda..hohoo (nak resize banner pon boley) 

3)Yang paling penting mestila korang kene letak gambar korang bertudung/berhijab/ber-shawl/berpurdah tu kat dalam entri korang tu ^^ 

4) Sila tag kawan-kawan korang..3 orang pon jadila..hee (make sure kawan korang taw yer) 

5) Dah siap tu submit la post korang kat COMMENT box gua okei :) 

6) Tarikh tutup pertandingan adalah 11 january 2011 

7) Ouh,kalau gambar berdua,bertiga bersepuluh pon takpe asalkan gambar korang kene ade ! ^^ 

8) Kalau baik hati alang alang da join contest tu ,tekan la butang follower tu.tehee, (tiada paksaan)

                                    

Berjelajelajela jugak syarat contest sapa lagi kalau bukan BAKAL ENGINEER KAPAL TERBANG en. woot-woot . he is a guy ok ! this is SUPERB NICE! and officially i nk announce , this is my 1st time joining contest and STYLE YOUR HIJAB is really + very attracted me to join since he invites me at shoutbox a few days ago . thanks , you are v kind person :) ok i will upload some hijab pictures and hope i will win hehe . tell me sapa tknk menang kan ? insyallah ada rezeki , alhamdulillah . if tkda , pun alhamdulillah :) nah , enjoy this pics .

Tag : Nina sayang , Nad tercintaa and Ain kasih 

Saje letak 3 pics . if tk berkenan yg 1st pic boleh tgk yg 2nd pic and seterusnya 3rd HAHA . since da alang-alang entry AKU SUKA BERHIJAB ni . aku nak share differences between hijab . 

Nowadays , ramai yang guna Hjiab . included me . so lets wear hijab because of Allah .

Good luck to me lol

Sorry, i am Useless

I wish someone would say they missed me but no one ever does 

only i do to them . damn , i am clingy.. so is my fat |:

This is for all my friends, who I thought I should apologies to, for not being very good at comforting you lot. I am sorry. I am a strong person and usually don’t turn to others when I am upset. I keep things inside for months, even years, before I tell people and there are some things I have never told anyone and probably never will. Some of them aren't even important. I guess there are lots of reasons why I keep everything to myself. I don’t want judgement. I don’t want to look like a fool. I don’t want to be embarrassed. I don’t want to bother other people with problems that could seem trivial compared to things they’re going though or have been through. I don’t value other peoples opinion because people are biased, selfish and will never know how you feel. I don’t want to seem weak and in some cases. I don’t want people to see that I am upset . I wouldn't say I find it easy to just block things out but I can definitely do it. I am good at putting on a smile and hiding things . 

DONT CALL THIS IS EGO 

Thankfully I haven’t had to do any of this lately. But it doesn't make me forget how strong I am. this is why i I am absolutely rubbish at comforting my friends. Because I don’t understand how people can’t just suck it up and deal with it, realize that things have changed, walk away from things that clearly aren't right. I feel awful, but if I was giving myself advice, it would be blunt. I hate to go into emotional bullshit on this blog, because its the reason I scrapped the last one, but when I decided to end my relationship at the beginning of this year it wasn't an easy decision. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but it HAD to be done. I didn’t want to talk about it with my friends or family because it does no good, talking does fuck all . 

I live in a world where relationships are superfiSIAL but abundant. But I would much rather live in a world where relationships are limited but full of honesty, trust, love, understanding, and most of all, depth and true connection. I feel like a fish out of water, struggling to breathe in an environment unnatural to me.  Allah, help me find and nurture meaningful relationships, Ameen .

'you say I choose sadness that it never once has chosen me'

- Rilo Kiley

Because i miss blogging :)

Dear Diary, 
The first thing i had in my mind this morning is a question that i often ask myself whenever i get out of bed ' How would this day go ? ' After i ask myself that, i just take a deep breath and hope that nothing shitty happens . well , nothing shitty happened . i guess Allah heard my prayer to give me a good day , and i am thankful . ohh , i just miss typing what i feel and what i did and everything . so ..

How are you guys ? i’m perfectly fine . i hope you guys are too  :) well , i finally learned to smile during mornings :D i rarely smile during mornings . but now i do . yeah , there’s something :) finally. A ' LOVE LIFE ' =)))

i know , i know . it’s kinda pathetic , but i like it. <3 :))

makan petang : marble cake .

This week , i don't know why mood memasak sangat la ketara gila . and tomorrow we decided nk beli creamcheese and whipping cream for cheesecake . i can't wait ! but , it's sad . i love baking and cooking and shit .. i hate how it gets me fat :(

Lately , 

too much blogger yang berlumba-lumba join apa ntah contest ke apa kt Blog Pilihan Malaysia .  its quite good actually . but for me , and bagi aku la . aku buat tatau je . aku menulis bukan untuk jadi fofular . ataupun lagi best lagi maksud dia macam tajuk lagu Ramli Sarip tu . hehe . memandai la ko . writing is satisfaction when we write in passion way . melalut plak da . but its true bebeh ! bagi aku writing ni seni yang mampu aku buat . menyanyi , berlakon , melukis , and apalagi ? semua aku tak pandai . sometimes [ bukan sometimes je , hari-hari tu ] aku decorate blog ' A Diary of Sorts' ni supaya sedap mata aku memandang . lagi indah aku tengok , lagi banyak nafsu kuda aku untuk menulis . aku menulis untuk diri aku sendiri . tempat aku luahkan apa aku rasa and tempat aku review balik my routine days . begitulah ceritanya . itu cerita aku , cerita korang aku tatau.

Okay , this is part of my room . my AWESOME queen bed ! Tade kena mengena =,=

Just another day . nothing special . tomorrow is Saturday …then finally Sunday . it’s been a quick week .. but Thank Allah , lol . Okay, my diary entry ends here . i still have a lot of things to do .  i’ll talk to you soon .

Hello , new folks , and goodbye , people who left .

Night sayang 

A bit about Aimi Razman

Well i dont know how to describe this feeling .

*blur

If you see me as a cheerful or a talk active girl . spamming around here and there on facebook . twitter or tumblr . thats because in real life . i’m never good in speaking . i’m never good in expressing my feeling verbally , hence i use words . unlike my siblings , i’m never good in speaking or dealing with people . i don’t have much friends , i despise crowd . i feel life is hard when i can't even defense myself !

*sobsob . 


actually i am an interesting ceh . fun loving girl with a good sense of humor . One thing about me that is important to know though is that at first i come of as a very shy individualistic girl but once i get to know people and are comfortable with my environment i am great . yeah !! it is hard for me to make friends but once i make them , it’s great and i am all different . i joke , laugh and humor people and i also get as much as i give. i am a very kind , compassionate, sensitive as my close friends will tell you . i have a tough shell but on the inside i am soft . i am also a very principled person and stand strong on what is right and wrong . i am also a very straight and honest person . i understand and know that we all put on a show sometimes and do not show who we really are or what we feel but some people do this constantly and those kinds of people i cannot stand . *bangga sekejap . 

i may look so strong outside . but deep inside i’m so fragile . shit happens and there’s no way i could escape from them . i often forget why i’m alive in this flawed world . running down the empty road , passing by every single sign just to look for directions . yes ! i , sometimes forget that i have Allah beside me . then if i know that my God would never leave me . why i still feel so alone and lonely while i can pray ? why i still feel afraid for some unknown reasons ? is it because i didn’t worship Him properly ??

*subhanallah , Allah Maha Besar . disappointments , tears and remorse . they often come as a packet in life . i keep talking to myself . i should stop questioning myself about all the things i’ve done in life . i know visualizing how awful my life is would be too unfair without thinking the brighter side . the happiness that i had all this while , should be happened for a reason .*insyallah . i just don’t know why i feel so mellow in these past few days . you know , it really hurts when you think maybe your life ain’t worth a shit . but , maybe i should at least keep fighting for the ones i love , for mak and babah’s sake , for my siblings and my family and of course for the others who really appreciate my existence . *thanks guys , you rocks !

i won’t cry anymore . because i’m trying my best . because i’ll be stronger .

Holiday !

Assalammualaikum readers tercinta , now i br nak update bout my holiday yg past two weeks ago kot coz lately i malas sket nk update yela tu . since cuti sekolah ni , we all diizinkan Allah untuk pergi bercuti . bkn luar negara la . kt KL je . dulu plan macam-macam . nk holiday kt Langkawi la , Johor Bharu la , last-last KL jugak . 

  

baru sampai hotel . muka nk ceria je .

after check in tunggu la kt lobby bout half an hour tunggu bilik siap

tk jugak siap-siap . lama giler service . 2 hours tunggu . muka da macam haram da ni

Now , da naik bilik . cantik and color dia smooth . theme vanila and green .

time ni da mess gila da

Tv ok la besar , luas mata tgk

sori la berselerak sket . korang rajin-rajin la tolong kemas

bathroom ko sume tmpt nk snap gambar

tgk org kt bawah ramai . normal la time petang , suma nk bersantai .

then , tomorow morning bot 9am kot , we all turun swimming !

 tanpa diganggu org len :)

ok this is next hotel .  nice sgt room dia .

aku tatau nape adik aku ni happy gila smpi jd mcmni

yang sorang lg ni , duk diam je

and yg sorang lg ni guling-guling atas lantai

aku tertarik dgn benda alah ni sbb dia sgt serupa dgn alas makanan kt umah aku .

teehee , best gila merangkak kt lantai ni . tejukkk

yehu , itu je i nk share wit you all . time jalan-jalan we all tk sempat snap gambar pun coz busy beli barang kikiki . busy la sgt . tp mmg btul pn =) we all satu family w/o abg went to KL dalam 2 hari 3 malam . and the last day , pergi visit ayah de sbb dia baru balik haji . itu je la . fun and happy juga . coz dpt stuffs yg i nak . puas hati sgt . thanks Allah :)